Am I Stupid

Am i Stupid or something?

Should I just not be honest with people …?

I dont understand the big deal?

Yes my diagnosis is not ‘officially’ confirmed…

But my psychologist went through the DMV with me… and I have two of the criteria…

I identify strongly with other women with Aspergers…

I lost count of how many of the symptoms that I do or have..

What else does Ruben want me to say?

That Im sorry .. that I think I am Aspergers… what the fuck?

If I keep everything to myself and just stop talking about it … maybe that will make her life easier to deal with… maybe its worrying to her…

Maybe she looks at me as a person with a mental illness now that she is studying psychology

and not as her mother..

That is what hurts…

That she could look at me and not see me… that she just sees my mental illness…. my other symptoms…

And does not stop and actually listen to what I am saying to her….

I dont understand when it is so clear to me.. why its not to other people

Am I really crazy… am I a self involved atention seeking narcissist…

 

I can feel a meltdown coming on.. fuck I hate this

 

 

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Author: thesecretaspieblog

I am more than my diagnoses, I am more than my past. I defy anyone to put me in a box and label who and what I am. I am exceptional. I am unique and so are you. Strive for the stars and you shall paint the world around you with ecstasy, laughter and empathy. Show compassion for those less fortunate. Do not forget the lost ones. Stand up for human rights and social justice. I have been labelled Autistic by therapists, I have been labelled with Multiple Personality Disorder by psychiatrists. On Fetlife I am labelled an Owner, a Cuckoldress and a Mistress. Labels do not define who you are but give others an idea of what you are and that is all. Be more than just a label.

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