Lately.. Im not sure if it is Carnal.. well it might

I feel like hunting… like a big fucking cat hunting my prey.. men…

Carnal loves the hunt.. the flirting.. the catch and eventually

But also.. not sure who it is… feels very primal.. like Beast.. but not beast…

Beast was always a big leopard in my mind.. but this one…

Same but different.. maybe he has evolved…

When I see Carnal in my head.. I see a woman… she is in shadow… .. walking through the jungle with a huge naked man on a chain beside her crawling along the ground.. looks like he is stalking… such a strange image… she is dressed like an amazon.. but holds no weapons… long straight hair.. not sure what colour.. not blonde I dont think.. more brown.. maybe… slim.. but looks strong… hmm… average height.. nothing really remarkable about her but the man on a chain.. Might be a forest.. but I get the impression of verdant greenery.. bird calls.. brown leaves being trodden underfoot… vines hanging down .. hmmm.. interesting…


Author: thesecretaspieblog

I am 47 years old, divorced a long time ago.. with abusive ex's in my past... I have three children in their early twenties who may or may not have Aspergers. I am self diagnosed and in the future when I can I would like to be officially diagnosed. I just don't have any money to spare atm. I am on Disability for having Multiple Personality Disorder. I was diagnosed officially in 2012. I knew about my personalities from when I was 31. Finding out I am probably on the spectrum has in some ways given me a life jacket and simultaneously felt like someone is pushing me under..... This is just my thoughts put into words.

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