Chaotic

Have you ever lived in a houseful of people?

Have you ever had time to yourself in said house?

It is few and far between….The last week I have really felt it….Everyone wants, needs or is demanding something and we just don’t have the money or are in the life situation at the moment to have it…and the others hate it…

“Why can’t I go out drinking and smoking and partying when I want!” Carnal demands….

“Why can’t I have ALL the things I want?” says the Littles …

“Why can’t I smoke and go out whenever I want?!” exclaims Ponyboy…

“Why can’t we have steak, chips and eat whatever we fucking want????” says Bull, Lucius and just about everybody…..

“Why can’t I buy ALL the craft I please???” …questions Mirriam….

“WHY WHY WHY????!!!!….

FUCK ME DEAD!!!!!

Because it is my fucking Life!!!!…because we don’t have it …because-because because!!this is what got us in trouble all my life with money…with people…with situations…!!!

You’re all driving me fucking crazy with your demands and wants….

Deal with it people….sighs…

 

Author: thesecretaspieblog

I am 47 years old, divorced a long time ago.. with abusive ex's in my past... I have three children in their early twenties who may or may not have Aspergers. I am self diagnosed and in the future when I can I would like to be officially diagnosed. I just don't have any money to spare atm. I am on Disability for having Multiple Personality Disorder. I was diagnosed officially in 2012. I knew about my personalities from when I was 31. Finding out I am probably on the spectrum has in some ways given me a life jacket and simultaneously felt like someone is pushing me under..... This is just my thoughts put into words.

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